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It's A……??????

Drum roll please!!

 

Thanks to everyone who voted, and took the time to comment, I thought it high time I let you know that we are having a……..

 

 

 

 

 

 

BOY

 

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For anyone who does have me on social media – please don’t make any comments regarding the gender as we are keeping it a secret for a little while longer. 🙂

The  wife was obviously over the moon as she wanted a boy, I was certain it was a girl, and had spent 5 months assuming so – so I was somewhat shocked to find out it was a boy. Everyone asked if I was disappointed, I don’t think that’s the right word to use. I was just surprised. I don’t usually get things wrong, so something so fundamental that I had spent such a long time thinking about needed a readjustment process. I needed to process what it meant.

I spent the best part of a week worrying and fretting that I would have nothing in common with our little boy – and that the wife would have everything in common – I am not particularly sporty – although I love rock climbing and the gym – but I dont like football and things – all the normal sports boys like. Anyway – I also am generally a bit of a man hater – you have to be a special man before I will willingly trust you. I have been burnt many a time by men, and so I guess I just worried about what it would mean to have a man in our family. I never imagined our lives with a male in it, and so it was daunting. Don’t get me wrong – I know that I will be bringing up this little boy and therefore able to shape some of his views and certainly his behaviour and hopefully his morals. But still it was a shock as that just isn’t what I had imagined or planned for.

All I had imagined was sitting with my little girl cuddled on the sofa reading together – just like I had done with my mum. I guess I just don’t know many boys who do that. Of course that is not to say our son won’t be like – who knows what he will be like – These are just all the thoughts that ran through my head when I found out.

Also – the horror stories a couple of friends were telling me about their little boys playing with their willies in front of friends etc!! oh dear!! What have we let ourselves in for!!

The main thing from the scan is that it HE I must remember I can say he now!! He is healthy, apparently his legs are a little on the short side although in the normal range – just like mine!! haha. Hopefully they will grow at some point!

Right I’m off to visit the mother!!

Hormonal Times – 19 weeks

So, I am officially shit. Completely missed the 18 week post, and my 3 blogs a week average is starting to slip…

What can I say?

Pregnancy makes you tired – I really figured that I would be less tired now I am in the second trimester but seemingly not.

I think the whole decorating the house thing kinda exhausted us both, but now it is mostly done – just the babies room to go.

Thursday coming we have our 20 week scan  – seriously half way ALREADY??? wtf.

This week has been tough – we went to buy the pram and car seat and had it all fitted outside the shop and when we came back out someone or something had smashed my windscreen in a footlong snowflake /spider looking thing – I think someone hit it with a hammer, but the wife isn’t so sure, I just don’t see what else could have done it? What do you think?

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That is literally me! fingers up at the world!

We get to find out the gender at our next scan, everyone, well mostly everyone is excited for us to find out.

I will let you know when we know! 🙂

Pregnancy Fear

Fear.

Something all pregnant women experience. Whether about ‘being a mum’ or being ready or having the right things and breast feeding. We all worry and are fearful about something.

But, and I hope that my infertility friends out there agree. There is something about us women with issues that changes this fear.

It becomes an all consuming, infestation of fear. It eats away at our positivity, our happiness and leaves us with a putrid rotting mess of fear and worries.

Even when we do get that BFP, we panic until we have seen a scan, with two weeks till your next scan you ride a wave of joy for a week until the fear virus erodes away at your excitement until your a quivering nervous wreck again at your next scan convinced something bad has happened and your babies been taken away.

I have the virus. I have the fear. My 12 week scan is on Friday, 5 days away, and I am terrified to look at the screen terrified something will have happened.

I have fleeting panics about ‘silent’ miscarriages because my sister in law had one. Moments of mental anxiety so severe I swear my heart will start will bleed with fear.

With every disappearing symptom I convince myself its not because that’s to be expected nearing the end of the first trimester but because something bass happened.

We dislike the symptoms but they are a reassurance. A comfort knowing your bodies responding to the baby growing.

I have one small comfort, I developed a new symptom the other night, a persistent sour taste that won’t go away. It’s gross but I know it’s a good sign, so I’m clinging desperately to it hoping it will provide me some kind of antibiotic to my fear virus.

I just need Friday to come and the doctors to give me the all clear.

I have everything crossed.

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