Ok, as if I haven’t peed on enough sticks I decided to do three tests this morning just to make sure… They were all positive!! Here’s the clear blue and first response… Both positive. I wonder when I’ll be able to stop testing!! I am in disbelief
Two Week Wait
If women who are trying to get pregnant aren’t tortured enough, there is something so heinous, so vile, that I wouldn’t wish it upon my enemy…
They are these little second lines that appear after you have taken the test. Except they aren’t bright pink.
If your anything like me, you pee on a stick, don’t get an instant result and throw it away after less than a minute skulking back to bed. Then when you wake up 40 minutes later you rush back downstairs, take out the discarded pregnancy test, and have another look… just to see… even though you know your not supposed to look after 10 minutes.
Evaporation lines, give you hope. They play with your mind and make you think theres a shred of hope. Evaporation lines are grey and not pink. And are just left over from the test, it doesn’t mean your pregnant.
F*** you google. Ruined my day. I hate you. I want to cry but I don’t… so I won’t. On the inside, I am crushed. GUTTED, broken.
I’ve attached my evaporation lines… taken from three different angles!!
I think its grey. My wife thinks it’s pink.
Because I am that crazy, I took two normal photos, and then decided to take a macro shot… a shot like a microscope… you get WAY close to it… When you do that the line looks grey… no baby…
Edited 23rd Nov 2015 – I decided to come back and edit this post because it still gets a lot of hits. For any woman coming to read this post now, I want to you know there is hope… That evaporation line turned out to be pink and the earliest positive pregnancy test possible! I was pregnant, I carried to term, and now I have a beautiful boy. Keep going. You will fall pregnant. <3
So I am an idiot,
I took a test yesterday (9 days post ovulation) thats far too early right? well, I took it and it was negative 🙁
I am now 10 days post ovulation, and I am going to try and wait until the day AF is due. She’s due Saturday. It’s only Wednesday…. I am guessing I shouldn’t test until at least Friday? maybe Saturday morning.
I am just disappointed. I thought because I only have 13 days between my ovulating and coming on that I would implant quicker and therefore show up as pregnant quicker. I guess thats not the case.
well, fuck science. I am going silently mad here.
If it does come out negative… what do I do?? keep trying?
ugh. I am going to be so disappointed.
I am trying to stay positive. But being positive means symptom spotting, and then me turning myself inside out mentally, and then feeling negative. This is a ridiculous insane vicious circle. I JUST WANT TO KNOW if it worked and if im pregnant 🙁
Don’t feel like talking much, I am trying really hard to stay positive. I feel like a psycho. Up one minute down the next. Same shit as last time, think I am pregnant one minute, convinced I’m not the next.
Much less stressful this time, because pretending your positive eventually makes you feel temporarily positive. But the two weeks is taking an achingly long time to go.
In the morning I will be 4 Days post IUI, and 8 days till I am due on…
This time feels longer than the last.
I hate waiting.
Not only am I waiting to test, but I am also waiting for an appointment with the NHS again. It’s beyond frustrating, I am on a waiting list, for an appointment, just for a fucking appointment. During this appointment, I will just be referred to an IVF clinic. Which means I will go on another waiting list.
I wont get an appointment for the referral appointment until the end of April. Which means I wont go on a IVF waiting list till May at the earliest.
HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE WAITING
Why can’t I just be pregnant already?
I want to cry.
So it’s my birthday tomorrow (the 10th) and as irony would have it, it’s also Mother’s Day!
And my birthday present would be….
An insemination! Yes if valentines wasn’t ironic enough now were going for Mother’s Day and my birthday!!
Lets hope this ones a good omen.
I would like to thank everyone for all the advice on my choices choices post. It was greatly appreciated and as you can see I went with your advice and will be hopping on a plane at silly o’clock tomorrow morning!
Lets hope IUI #2 goes a bit better than the first!!
I seem a lot more relaxed this time, in fact almost laissez faire about the whole thing, I even forgot to do an ovulation test one night!
I’ve gone from one neurotic extreme to a horizontal other!!
The two week wait already feels like a bitch!!