Advice needed.
I had a funny turn this week – went all pale and sweaty and ghost like, and I nearly fainted. I got sent home from work and worked from home for two days.
I feel exhausted – like totally utterly and completely drained. I want to cry every morning trying to get out of bed and force myself to work. I sit at my desk and I can feel heavy weights dragging the bags under my eyes lower. I am exhausted to my bones, to my soul, my very core.
I really feel like the funny turn was probably exhaustion related. In fairness I have changed job, moved house – fully redecorated the entire house, started and completed a dissertation and a huge work submission all whilst being pregnant and the only time off ive had is 5 days (2 of which were a weekend) when I was ill. So I haven’t really had any time off so I am not surprised I am unwell.
But heres the thing, I have 4 full weeks left at work and I have to go in for one day for a big work conference a week later – that’s compulsory. But I feel like my body is giving up.
I could leave work a week earlier…. I could. I am due to leave at about 37.5 weeks but I could leave around 36 if I shifted a weeks leave from the end of my maternity to this side. But the thought of doing that makes me feel like a failure, I feel like I would be failing the baby before he even got here, giving up a weeks worth of time with him, to rest. I cant seem to get my mind out of that mindset… it just seems wrong.
I don’t really know what to do.
I have a weeks leave to play with, I could work 4 day weeks for the next 4 weeks, or I could split the hours and work 2-2.5 hours less a day – but that feels like a waste – like I am not really getting anything from using a whole weeks leave. Or I could leave work in 3 weeks instead of 4… or I could just man up and leave when I planned too in 4 weeks time…
What should I do????
Listen to your body!! You need to feel healthy to take care of the both of you! I almost passed out like that around 35 weeks. I was told that the blood flow wasn’t getting where it needed to go because of the way I was sitting. The doctor said to sit in a chair and try to put my head between my legs (or as close at it would come).
I hope you feel better soon! Take as much time to rest as possible!
Did u?? :O yeh I decided that I would leave work a week earlier 31st oct so I just need to put in for the leave now!! I do need to listen to my body your right. It’s just difficult to change ur mindset to knowing that rest is ok! And not failing…
Take the time off and take care of yourself! xx